Revelations

Are they nothing or merely the subconscious mind’s way of letting you realize what you have simply forgotten; a submerged thought, a suppressed emotion. You can never bend it to your will.

So what happens if a similar dream occurs? Or if it’s the same person? Should you think of it as somewhat of a coincidence or destiny? How do you welcome dreams?

You see, I’ve always had this dream about her and how I become this overly martyr type of character. I’d be hurting and bruised, and she would just watch me or make a futile attempt to help me.

Then it hit me. I’ve never gotten over her. I know that my being so selfish and insensitive before had hurt her. I did that. And this is retaliation for the pain I’ve inflicted her. It may seem minimal, but it deflected twice as much on me. Had she told me about what was really going on, and what has been happening to me, this could have been easily avoided. But it is what it is, life.

Being too stubborn to face any issue, I walked away from any relationship that required me to DEAL with it. So any way of closure wasn’t even possible. Now they’re slowly creeping back into my life. Yep, I’m in deep shit, because mostly I’ve cut off ways of communication. Isn’t that just great?!

Up to this date, my ability to forget astounds me. That is how I managed to disassociate myself from recently inflicted pain. It lingers ever so often when I find myself lost in thought. Mystery solved. But will I jeopardize what I have for something completely insane?

Dreams can either break you or make you. Dreams not of your future, not of what you wish to neither be nor accomplish. Dreams that are triggered when you are in deep sweet slumber, where you would often wake up either grinning or sweating. Dreams created by the little things you have come to notice throughout the day and your mind simply takes little pieces of them and makes it into something that makes sense. Lets you remember of what you have ignored for so long.

We need to talk..

The story continues…

~ by The Kid on February 21, 2010.